Still

The reason why.

It tingles your heart,

but it can hurt like no cuts can.

It makes you act selfishly,
but generously at the same time.

It can bring you high up to the stars,

but also to the deepest point of hell.

It makes you smile foolishly at yourself,

worse still, make you cry your heart out.

It can even warm you up in the coldest nights,

but its also the coldest in the hottest day of summer.

It makes you do all the nonsensical things that you wouldn't do.
And makes you feel all sorts of emotions, even to the extremes.

With it, anything and everything is possible,
without it, everything seems meaningless.

Damnation indeed.

"I'm the worst that you can ever get,
but damned to loving you.
And you'll just have to live with it,
cause nothing ain't gonna change that."

Call that crazy?

I call that love.

Change

Make a U-turn.

Last day before Mock, I'm not prepared.

It just occurred to me how lucky I am to be able to study. Being a student, rather than doing anything and everything else that I could've done. Though ACCA students are frequently being described as lifeless. But sometimes its fun. Being stressed about studies is not so bad after all.

We can make mistakes. We can start over again.

At this age, we're all still young. I guess. And its never too late to

, make a change. Now. Before you enter into the sorry state of regretting life. And being tied down by commitments and responsibilities.

Don't be afraid, just jump right in.

Sometimes you lose, sometimes you win, you make mistakes.

That's what it takes to find your way.

"Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm."

Winston Churchill.

Charger

Aaaaargh!

Haha.

Domo-kun is sooo very adorable. :)

-

Just dropping by for a while, to say that I'm feeling much better already.

Thank you, for being concerned, and putting up with me.

:)

Filling up coloured squares and shaping metals.

I'm touched. Sobs.

And I'm glad.

-

I miss home.

I miss holidays.

Stressed for Mock and getting tensed in classes.

I tend to frown quite a lot, don't I? I'm not angry or whatsoever, just a habit which I never take notice before. I tried not to, but its like some involuntary action which I can't really control. Hmmm. I'll try to change, but I can't promise anything. Haha.

Homework are piling up like Mount Everest. Fuhh.

I'll be lucky if I have any spare time to revise.

:(

Gambatte!

I believe that things will change, or rather, improve with time.

Its just the way you perceive it.

Hope in Despair

I'm not feeling quite good. In fact, its bad.

Having a lot in my mind, I'm just confused.

Confused with what I want, and what's best.

Sometimes, things are not so simple.
If. Want. Wanted.

If. Will. Would have.

Trying to brush it off, but these feelings still betrayed me.

Exam. Sucks.
Studied, but end up having no time to finish the paper.
Quite frustrating when you know the answer but just had not enough time to write it out.
Hopefully I'll pass.

Another paper coming up on Thursday, and its a tough one.
Having quite a number of classes in between.
Time is the essence.
I have tons to read up on.
Hopefully my motivation to study will not be exhausted.

Hopefully I'll be able to maintain a positive mentality.
Its so hard nowadays.

Where is the luck that I needed?

Just when I thought

Wish that I can do this.

Or not. I won't be able to have the same expression as her. Haha.

Have I mentioned before that I have phobia for deep water? Ever since I was young I'm afraid. The most scary ones are oceans, ohh I hate deep pools too. Haha wonder how I learnt to swim last time.

When I was little, I used to watch those documentaries on TV about the sea. Encyclopedias too. They never fail to spook me. Its always because of the depth, of the nothingness deep down, and humans' inability to breathe under water. Anddd the sea creatures. Can't they look any better? Oh I'm not referring to those normal-looking fish, crabs or whatsoever, don't get me wrong. Its those alien-looking ones that live deep under the ocean, with weird shapes and colours. Ahh and those with teeth that is much worse than Piranhas'. Gosh.

I'll tend to imagine these gruesome creatures under water, and I'll either drown or being eaten up by them. This is really scary. :(

Okay, maybe I watched too much movies. I may or may not be as scared now. Either way, I'm never going to prove it.

Treasure hunting.
I'm interested in this though. ;)

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Okay Mock exam's coming up tomorrow, I'm starting to feel stressful. Fuh. Back to books! Wish me luck please, and thank you. :)

Surprised. I am.

Yawns

It wasn't until the last minute that we'll (I'll) start to worry about what's going to hit us (me). E.g. Mock exam. Haha. Sometimes, I miss those olden days (okay maybe not so long time ago) when we had exams for like one hour plus? And completing multiple choice questionnaires, gosh they're so extinct nowadays. And one fav method, 'tembak', and still passing the exams. Lol. Life was so simple then, but fun.

During those days, life as a student was not just about studying and passing the exams. Nor it was about going out for movies or 'lepak-ing' at shopping malls etc. Well, for me. Growing up in a small town is very different. When I was young, going to the cinema was special, up till before I came to Sunway. And I still remember the first movie I watched, Titanic. It was at some mini cinema which went bankrupt not long after. There were no popcorns or Coke, instead, we ate indian kacang. Haha. I remember the excitement, the joy whenever dad announces that we're going for movies. Somehow, it was fun. Although I couldn't really catch what they're talking most of the time. Haha.

A matter of fact, there're no malls at my place. Supermarkets, yes. So its quite impossible to hang out there. Instead, it may just be around the tar road near the tuition place. We'd walk and explore the place, usually at night, or pranking some irritating kids. Or just buying ice cream, junk food at a nearby grocery shop. Who cares about health, money, or getting fat. Haha. We'll talk about the latest series showing on TV, complaining about teachers, anything and everything. And I had always wished that my dad will be late to fetch me. Haha.

Oh I recall how I always dreamt of going to the world out there. Couldn't wait to leave the house and to live by myself. Naive I was.

And how I wish that my home is just right at the corner now. And now I understand, why home is the best place on Earth. And its never about the place, but the people around you.

Haha not trying to imply anything here, just expressing my thoughts. Sorry that its a bit draggy. Starting to feel sleepy already, yawns, andd I'm signing off. Goodnight people. :)

Reflect

Complete the other half for me?

Mock for F8 Audit is over, I hope I didn't screw the paper. I've been really stressed. A gap of 3 days left till the F9 paper exam.
Wasn't feeling good today afternoon, period cramps. Like hell it was. Original plan was to go for movies with housemates, but 'tak jadi' cause of the bloody painful cramps. Anyway, felt better after for god knows how long. However, thanks for caring and sorry for letting you guys worry. I'm feeling much much better now. :)
Plan was continued then but others weren't able to make it. So its just me and Jade off to Pyramid.
Lunch at Sushi Zanmai.



After lunch then went to watch the movie Kick-Ass.

A fun movie I'd say, may not appeal to some people but, I like it. Its a story about a superhero wannabe. Quite lame at some parts but its funny! Haha. Love the way they present the movie. Ohh andd the fighting scenes are superb. :D

A break today before the war continues. Hopefully I'll utilize the time properly to revise, no more other thoughts or distractions after this please and thank you.


Sweet chocs. Thanks. :)

When I Look At You

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I look at you.

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am, like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colours that prove to me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't you know, you're beautiful

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I look at you.
You appear just like a dream to me.

Miley Cyrus

Pieces

Bak Kut Teh feast at hostel:

'Notice' of the feast. Haha funny it is. :)

'Participants'. Haha.

Somehow, the soup ended up being prepared by Siao Li's mum. Aiks. Thank you auntie.
They're deliciouss. :)


A photo of me and C.Ling taken some time ago. T-shirts from Malacca. Oh how I miss Malacca, and all the fun we had!

Some time ago

Lunch at Chilli's, One U. :)


With Jade.

Bottomless chips. Nomnomnom. :D

Chicken Fajitas.


Wrap it and eat. :)

The good food, conversations and laughter. How time flies when we're having fun.

Relevance

Feel. Hope.

Mock exam is due on Tuesday. Wish me luck for my audit! No more failing this time, hmph! Will be busy studying for these 2 days, I hope.

Anyway, updates are coming up, and its an interesting lot. Worth anticipating. Haha. Will update as soon as I'm free.

Okay till next post then! :)

"If you want the rainbow then you've got to put up with the rain."

Deviation

Continuing journey.

I'm going back to Sunway today. 9 hours of class tomorrow. Fuh.

Not going to update so often already, busy life awaiting.

"To the world you are one person, but to me, you are the world."

不再分離

Hearts

Good afternoon fellows!
Just dropping by, for fun. As you can see, I'm quite free for these 2 days, having no classes and being back at home. Haha. Have tons of homework though. :(


Its nice, isn't it? :)

Okay my break time's over. Going back to my homework. Later!

"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why we call it 'The Present'."
Eleanor Roosevelt.

Home

Introducing my emotion dumpster.

I'm back home, after so long. Huh.

Its late midnight, my favourite time being home. When I'm alone. That's when I feel the tranquility, the quietness.. Its like a break from the hectic world, as if time had stopped. :)
Andd how I wish you were here.

Oh well.

Okay so on last Wednesday, went to watch the movie - How To Train Your Dragon.

First impression? "Is that a dragon or a cat? Lol!"
Having heard all the praises for the movie, decided to give it a shot. Andd, it turned out to be nice. Way better than expected. Unlike many other movies, it has a good storyline. Inspiring. No regrets at all. Haha. :)

"The story is about a father and chief of the Vikings who has a young son, Hiccup. Hiccup is small, a sarcastic talker and doesn't take orders well. He still seeks respect from his impressive father. At first, his father will not let his son be a warrior Viking, but later relents to have Hiccup train with the other youngsters. But instead of wanting to kill dragons, the boy befriends them and seeks to understand them.."

Haha looks like I'm promoting the movie. Lol.
Anticipating an upcoming movie - Prince of Persia (by Disney)

The trailer looks interesting. :)

Okay its time to sign off and go to bed.
Goodnight people. :)