As the title would have implied, I'm wasting my time away just lying on the sofa reading a book on my lappie. Haven't had much time lately to 'waste' away like this ever since I started working. Working itself is not as hard as juggling and managing my time, and the people around me that I cared about, also the most carefully guarded subject, money $$$. Lol. These are important stuffs which I was never shed light on, till I started my first career ever. Well lets skip the seriousness and boredom of work-related subjects, it's a Sunday after all, it's meant for people to laze around, I guess, at least for me.
Speaking of which, after hours of moulding myself to the sofa and reading that ebook, I was left a little frustrated, craving for more, as that bloody book left me with a hanging ending. And it doesn't end at that, but also gave me a constant neck-ache, light headedness, and also an empty stomach. Well nothing less to expect for since I practically glued myself to the sofa for hours, exactly like a paralyzed being, difference being me having the choice of moving, latter, not.
Well that was for the previous novel I was reading, its titled Where We Belong by Emily Griffin. Good story, but I don't fancy the ending, just a heads up. Now moving onto another one, Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella, story's interesting, funny lines here and there, got me cracked up with laughters every now and then. I know how I would've seemed to go bonkers laughing to myself like that, but oh well, its too funny sometimes to stifle a laugh.
Okay, enough of my ramblings, shall sign off for now. Till the next post then. :)
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Monday, December 24, 2012
So, what's next?
Its mind-numbing how the thought of one person can evoke so little hope and yet so much disappointments. I can't even begin to fathom what is it about this person that often drives me so insane up and down the roller coaster of emotions. My mind is always telling me rationally how I should make a retreat, and yet my heart is always racing forward, towards what I call now, an abyss of darkness, a place forlorn of all hope. Despite the name, my heart still long for this cold place. The only restrain I could manage is the belief that what I wanted is not in there, and never will be there.
So here I am, always unable to untangle myself from these strings of emotions. And despite any distances, I still care, and I still think about it from time to time. What's different now is how I've embraced it, and I'm glad I'm not so broken, not so dysfunctional.
Who would have known my life will turn out like this. But I am happy now, I guess, of course, there are things here and there that could be better, but its okay. I've learnt to be contented with life. Its amazing how any simple decisions can lead to a chain of most unthought-of events. I've learnt that you can hardly stop caring for people whom you care about a whole lot, and the best that you can do is just to wish them the best in all that they do, and move on with your life.
So here I am, always unable to untangle myself from these strings of emotions. And despite any distances, I still care, and I still think about it from time to time. What's different now is how I've embraced it, and I'm glad I'm not so broken, not so dysfunctional.
Who would have known my life will turn out like this. But I am happy now, I guess, of course, there are things here and there that could be better, but its okay. I've learnt to be contented with life. Its amazing how any simple decisions can lead to a chain of most unthought-of events. I've learnt that you can hardly stop caring for people whom you care about a whole lot, and the best that you can do is just to wish them the best in all that they do, and move on with your life.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Lynas, Lynas, oh Lynas
Ahhh I'm back! I have something which I wish to get off my chest of, and this concerns the most recent news on the Lynas plant setting up at Kuantan, Malaysia. I think everyone must have heard of oh-so-famous Lynas by now.
First of all, I must say that I am not keen of that idea myself, but I guess a girl like me doesn't have much power to change anything about it. Oh well. But here's my opinion. I think, if people really do want to stop Lynas from setting up here, they need to do more than just changing their profile pictures to banners, posting alien pictures on Facebook, and shouting curse words on posts and statuses, which I really think is very immature. If you are really supportive, why not get the hell out and go for the rally yourself?
It is actually inevitable, that factories would need to be built to accommodate the world's demand on rare earth metals. We are just unlucky enough that our government actually approve of them setting up here, and giving them tax exemptions as well! That's the thing about the government here, they're ....... (fill in the blank yourself.) But as for Lynas, they will need to set up their plant somewhere. If its not Malaysia then Indonesia? Or any other neighboring countries? It is okay if its set up at other countries then?
I saw people commented on how they should build it in the middle of a desert. Seriously? People are everywhere, even in the desert man. There will be workers in the factory too. So its okay if one day, a leak happened, and the people there all die? As long as its not at Malaysia, then its okay for other places, other people, other ecosystems to face the risk of contamination?
Let's just admit that we are all being selfish. If you really want to stop Lynas, why not lower the demand of rare earth metals by stop using or buying smart phones, iPods, laptops, flat screen TVs, hybrid cars, and all other equipment that use rare earth metals? I think at this point, most people would rather die from radiation than to lose all their electronic equipment forever. So, if you want to continue using your smart phones and all, why don't you suck it up when the factory which processes the metals necessary to produce your gadgets is set up, coincidentally at Malaysia?
Don't say stop Lynas, unless its really what you mean. You don't want them to stop productions, you don't want to live without all of your high-end gadgets. I guess, 'let other people die, move Lynas to other countries' or 'change the government', or maybe 'keep Lynas away from Malaysia', would be the more appropriate phrases for you.
Truth be told, I do not favor them setting up in Malaysia. Let's face it, nobody wants to die, or to face higher risks of dying. But I know its inevitable that they'll set up the plant somewhere, and I myself being a smart phone fan, a laptop user, TV user etc, have no rights to oppose them. Because of people like me, that they exist and grow. I will not go about telling everyone how we will turn into aliens and that we should stop Lynas. I will just stay where I am now, not involved, and neutral.
There I said it! :)
Psst, I think its my longest post ever. :O
First of all, I must say that I am not keen of that idea myself, but I guess a girl like me doesn't have much power to change anything about it. Oh well. But here's my opinion. I think, if people really do want to stop Lynas from setting up here, they need to do more than just changing their profile pictures to banners, posting alien pictures on Facebook, and shouting curse words on posts and statuses, which I really think is very immature. If you are really supportive, why not get the hell out and go for the rally yourself?
It is actually inevitable, that factories would need to be built to accommodate the world's demand on rare earth metals. We are just unlucky enough that our government actually approve of them setting up here, and giving them tax exemptions as well! That's the thing about the government here, they're ....... (fill in the blank yourself.) But as for Lynas, they will need to set up their plant somewhere. If its not Malaysia then Indonesia? Or any other neighboring countries? It is okay if its set up at other countries then?
I saw people commented on how they should build it in the middle of a desert. Seriously? People are everywhere, even in the desert man. There will be workers in the factory too. So its okay if one day, a leak happened, and the people there all die? As long as its not at Malaysia, then its okay for other places, other people, other ecosystems to face the risk of contamination?
Let's just admit that we are all being selfish. If you really want to stop Lynas, why not lower the demand of rare earth metals by stop using or buying smart phones, iPods, laptops, flat screen TVs, hybrid cars, and all other equipment that use rare earth metals? I think at this point, most people would rather die from radiation than to lose all their electronic equipment forever. So, if you want to continue using your smart phones and all, why don't you suck it up when the factory which processes the metals necessary to produce your gadgets is set up, coincidentally at Malaysia?
Don't say stop Lynas, unless its really what you mean. You don't want them to stop productions, you don't want to live without all of your high-end gadgets. I guess, 'let other people die, move Lynas to other countries' or 'change the government', or maybe 'keep Lynas away from Malaysia', would be the more appropriate phrases for you.
Truth be told, I do not favor them setting up in Malaysia. Let's face it, nobody wants to die, or to face higher risks of dying. But I know its inevitable that they'll set up the plant somewhere, and I myself being a smart phone fan, a laptop user, TV user etc, have no rights to oppose them. Because of people like me, that they exist and grow. I will not go about telling everyone how we will turn into aliens and that we should stop Lynas. I will just stay where I am now, not involved, and neutral.
There I said it! :)
Psst, I think its my longest post ever. :O
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Once in Every Four Years
Once in a while in our lives, something will come along, appearing out of the blue, and remind us of the olden days, of our younger selves, of certain past events that we have long forgotten. And that was what came to me today, I heard of an old song, a song that carried memories I have not thought of for a long time.
We were once young, immature, and... wild? Childish? I guess. There were certain things that I did which I'm not proud of, I had my ways of thinking back then. I think this is the part where people would wish for a time machine, to go back in time and undo their mistakes or whatever that they wish to undo. But if I were to choose my actions again, I guess I wouldn't do it any other way, just because they are part of the things that made me who I am today. I can't say exactly that I'm perfect, but I think I am a better person now, because of who I was yesterday. And I can't say that I don't regret my certain doings either. I do regret causing all the damages, troubles, et cetera, especially to people I love, and to myself, but that's how we learn isn't it. And that is how life is going to be. With choices, there will be regrets, in the end, we'll just have to move on.
All in all, let's have a good life! Forget all the unhappiness, let go of all the pain, live our lives and bring happiness to this world!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
An Excerpt
"She knows something better is waiting out there for her. But she still can't shake off the dull ache that is still throbbing in her chest.
Who would have known, how despairing it can be to feel hopeless, to give up. She stares out the window, trying to recall how she used to feel when she was with him. They had been together for years, and just months ago their relationship ended when she found out that he's unfaithful. Flashing back to that day, she recalls feeling the sadness, the disappointments, she was so heartbroken... She suspected something fishy was going on, but she never expected the full extent of the truth. Thereafter she left and never looked back, he did the same too, and left without explaining anything.
She had stopped expecting anything from him, and lived her life on her own well enough through these few months without him, well, with a little help from work's hectic schedules and occasional trips to the bar downtown of course. But sometimes, she can't help remembering the days that she spent with him, just those little moments like waking up with him holding her, by her side, and she can't help herself from missing him. Maybe it is the loneliness that's playing tricks with her mind, cause she knows she no longer feels the way she did for him. Maybe it is the happy days that she's not able to let go. Or maybe it is just a habit of having him around, and now that she's alone.
It is Valentine's Day tomorrow, and the day will be as meaningless as any other days. Just another day of work, she thought to herself... "
Was in the mood of writing, so how was it? Haha. Anyways,
Happy Valentine's Day. :)
Who would have known, how despairing it can be to feel hopeless, to give up. She stares out the window, trying to recall how she used to feel when she was with him. They had been together for years, and just months ago their relationship ended when she found out that he's unfaithful. Flashing back to that day, she recalls feeling the sadness, the disappointments, she was so heartbroken... She suspected something fishy was going on, but she never expected the full extent of the truth. Thereafter she left and never looked back, he did the same too, and left without explaining anything.
She had stopped expecting anything from him, and lived her life on her own well enough through these few months without him, well, with a little help from work's hectic schedules and occasional trips to the bar downtown of course. But sometimes, she can't help remembering the days that she spent with him, just those little moments like waking up with him holding her, by her side, and she can't help herself from missing him. Maybe it is the loneliness that's playing tricks with her mind, cause she knows she no longer feels the way she did for him. Maybe it is the happy days that she's not able to let go. Or maybe it is just a habit of having him around, and now that she's alone.
It is Valentine's Day tomorrow, and the day will be as meaningless as any other days. Just another day of work, she thought to herself... "
Was in the mood of writing, so how was it? Haha. Anyways,
Happy Valentine's Day. :)
Friday, February 10, 2012
I'm Cooked
What's with the weather lately?
Its scorching hot!
Each time I step outside I'm greeted with hot breezes, sunlight that burn skins and a throbbing headache... All I wanna do now is to go for a cooling swim! And the nearest swimming pool is 40 minutes' drive away. Geez.
Guess I should just stay camped at home. D:
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Ironies of Life
I think I might have an artistic side. Feeling accomplished with my 'assemblage'. What do you think? :)
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Roar!
The year of dragon is coming!
Cool!
Here's a cute one. Haha.
New Year is a time for us to be reunited with our families. Its been more meaningful these past few years for me, since I left home to further my studies. Subsequently, my brother, sister left as well, and so most of the time not all of us are home. And now, everyone is back! We are all prepared to have a warm and hearty meal tonight, a reunion dinner.
I hope all of you are in the comforts of your own home, with your families and loved ones as well. :)
Have a Happy Chinese New Year everyone! :D
Friday, January 20, 2012
Ghost of Her Eyes
Haunt. Haunting. Haunted.
Words are not always representative of the truth, yet we seek truths from them.
Fools, aren't we?
Time will tell.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Music to My Ears
These two girls sing like angels. And my god, aren't they beautiful?
I know its a little late for Christmas songs, but this is for sure worth listening to at all times. :)
Got these pictures from their new website, and if you haven't visit it already, please proceed to www.jayesslee.com.
One of the few things that I find most charming in a person is a beautiful voice, bringing personalities into music, and songs he/she sings. Talents in that department is always a turn on for me. ;)
And now I am reminded of someone whose voice once had me completely captivated. Of whom I once had a little crush on, pity nothing happened out of it. Haha. Those days were funnn. :D
Monday, January 16, 2012
You Are Inhumane
One call, is all it needs to get those walls crumbling down.
One look, is all that I need to feel those emotions again.
What the hell?
I'm not going to let it be, not after all that I've gone through, not anymore.
One look, is all that I need to feel those emotions again.
What the hell?
I'm not going to let it be, not after all that I've gone through, not anymore.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Look At Me
There are always certain people in life that always make us so self-conscious whenever we are around them. We would fidget around, glance in his or her way every now and then, and probably make sure that we look good when we are around him or her. And that temporary heart attack whenever he or she glance in our way, we would then impulsively look away, or if we felt braver, we would hold eye contact and try to smile casually. Better yet when he or she smiles back, our joyful hearts will just jump in ecstasy while we try to remain cool and casual.
That sounds exciting doesn't it? I'm sure someone will come to mind when you read that. And I hope that someone is going to be, or already is, someone more than a stranger to you. :)
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Auld Lang Syne
Heard of this song in the movie, New Year's Eve. I'm not really a fan of Lea Michele (the girl from Glee), but she sang the song well. Anddd I like it. :)
Friday, January 13, 2012
Vanished
Are you afraid of death?
Can't believe that I'm doing daily posts nowadays. Lol.
I was testing my limits again, as I have been feeling kinda numb, emotionally. I am feeling optimistic, though I've been really down right about weeks ago. And here I was, bracing myself for the heartache, for the sting to come, and, nothing happened. And I couldn't be more taken aback by anything else.
It saddens me. That something I once put in everything for, could end up like this, and that eventually, it won't matter anymore. Its frightening, thinking that something so strong could end up in ashes in just a blink of an eye. And that people would just walk away in the end, not bothered by it anymore.
But that is just the way life is, and only in that way, we will be able to move on and find happiness again.
The same as of death. When someone important passed away, and we would mourn and grief, we would search ways to alleviate that pain. But eventually, the pain will fade away itself and we will move on with our lives, we will learn to forget and let go. Sometimes, it happens fast, other times, it may take longer, years maybe. And when that happens, all that is left will just be a lingering moment of thoughtfulness whenever someone thought of him, or her, and as quick as those thoughts came, they will be gone.
How does it feel like, to be forgotten, and to forget? It is liberating, and scary at the same time. We live with it, we deal with it, and in the end, we will leave too, and fade into oblivion...
Thursday, January 12, 2012
If there is an end, there is a beginning.
Okay, is it just me, or I'm just slow in realizing stuffs? Its 12/1/12 today, what a nice date huh? And that reminds me, its 2012 already (okay I'm not that slow, I know that) and I'm sure everyone heard of 'the apocalypse' thing right? The date is 21/12/2012, and it is the last day in the prophetic Mayan Calendar. And hence, many people had interpreted it as the day on which the world will end.
So, the world is not coming to an end. But, I decided that I will live as if the world is going to end soon anyways. Let's just let everything go, and do what we had always wanted to do, and enjoy life! That indeed, is a positive shift in my consciousness. Way to go, er, ancient Maya people!
I've always been interested in all these cultures and historical stuffs, when I was younger, I had wanted to be an archaeologist. Oh well, too bad its not an option, in Malaysia, and in my family. Anyways, take a look at the carvings from the Maya's civilization below.
I find it highly amusing. Do you?
The Mayans are native Americans and their civilization is situated around southern Mexico and northern Central America. In fact, there are around 7 million Maya people still living to this date!
Anyway, back to topic. The date is actually never a prediction of apocalypse, it is just the completion of a 'world age' for the Mayans, and that signifies the beginning of another cycle. And there are theories that during that date, there will be a positive shift in the human consciousness. That sounds more believable to me, though I really think that nothing will ever happen on that day itself.
"Scholars from various disciplines have dismissed the idea of such cataclysmic events occurring in 2012. Professional Mayanist scholars state that predictions of impending doom are not found in any of the extant classic Maya accounts, and that the idea that the Long Count calendar "ends" in 2012 misrepresents Maya history and culture. Astronomers and other scientists have rejected the proposed events as pseudoscience, stating that they are contradicted by simple astronomical observations."
Source - Wikipedia (you can read more about it here)
So, the world is not coming to an end. But, I decided that I will live as if the world is going to end soon anyways. Let's just let everything go, and do what we had always wanted to do, and enjoy life! That indeed, is a positive shift in my consciousness. Way to go, er, ancient Maya people!
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
667
Me like this picture, how about you?
I noticed that its 11/1 today, and thought I should wait until its 11.11pm to post it. It feels special that way, though there's nothing much about this post. Lol.
Speaking of multiple 1s, I realized that I haven't been noticing 11.11 lately, and I haven't been wishing for anything. Its not like anything came true out of it, but I guess its just a spiritual thing. I figured that I would stop wishing for things for a change, and use the time to express my gratitude instead.
We should be thankful for all the things around us. And I am. Are you?
Monday, January 9, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
5 ways to not let go of someone (after a breakup)
1. Stalk that someone on all the social networks available, be it on their blogs, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr etc. Better yet, make that person's Facebook profile your homepage. Now you see that person's face each time you open your browser. Isn't that just great.
2. Do not store away all the memorable stuffs, things both of you used to share, continue using/having them as if nothing's happened. Do not take off that ring he/she gave you, wear his/her favourite shirt on you whenever you can. Keep that sweet picture of both of you on your dresser, it belongs there, forever!
3. Tell yourself that he/she is just gone for a while and will be back when they realize they still do love you. Brainstorm on the things that you are going to say or do when they come back and imagine yourself being over the moon about it!
4. Convince yourself that you're not better off without them. Live everyday as if the world has ended and your life has turned meaningless. Live as pathetic as you can. Try to get yourself sick or injured to get them to care about you again.
5. Go to places that both of you used to go, places that held fond memories, and reminiscence. Listen to songs that he/she liked, watch movies that both of you used to enjoy, relive all those happy moments and think about them night and day. Remember all the things that you love about them, remember how happy you've been, remember the anniversaries, and finally, remember, to not let go.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
An end, a beginning
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I learnt one thing just starting this year - no matter how badly a person treated you, it doesn't make you right when you treat them the same way. And it doesn't make you any better in person either.
Thing is, no matter how many times you can see, hear or read about certain things, you'll never know the real deal unless you experience it for yourself. And so I've told myself to not judge.
In the end, the best person to learn from, is yourself.
Whoops pardon my endless thoughts. Anyways, wish all of you happiness and that life will become all that you want it to. Best wishes for 2012. Cheers!
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