I know its hard but, breathe.

When one is in darkness, he or she tends to feel lost and seek guidance from the light. But if one can come to acceptance with the dark, one can gain comfort and flourish, even in complete darkness.

The worst shall come to past, and it can only get better (since its the worst already isn't it). Best things always come, or happen when you least expect them to, so, don't expect and you might find yourself pleasantly surprised. I hope.

Just a glimpse

I love waking up early (occasionally), to enjoy fresh breathe of morning air.

There is a smell to morning air that seems to make me feel refreshed and light. Coolness of the air, and warmth of the sunshine, best coupled with a faint smell of coffee in the air. Mmmmm. The best things in life are mostly free, aren't they? (note the word 'mostly', lol) Sometimes you gotta stop what you're doing for a while and have a moment to appreciate and be thankful for the things around you, you'll find that life is more fulfilling and alleviating that way.

Just want to say, its nice meeting you. :)

What say you?

I found this picture today. A picture I took with my parents after graduation.

Come to think of it, things are not so bad isn't it. I've graduated within the minimum time frame, made some friends along the way, its been one hell of an experience I would say. Three years ago, I came brokenhearted but hopeful, and now I'm brokenhearted, again, but feeling in peace. Its amazing how we can still love from all the little broken pieces, isn't it.

Why dwell on the past when we can't change them anymore? Yes, occasionally we would mourn for what we lost, but life goes on anyway. Its a balance that we need.

I have never looked at life this way before, but now that I think about it, I still have a long stretch of future and life ahead of me. Bright future maybe? I hope. There's many things I want to achieve, but my first goal would be, to have a purpose and be contented. 

Life is a tapestry woven by the decisions we made.

Now, I just need to make the right ones, and hope for the best. Right? 

iHate

How things are right now.
How I feel about them.
How I think that there's gotta be something more,
but to be disappointed again and again in the end.
How I tried to force thoughts out of my mind,
but to fail terribly.
How I convinced and comforted myself,
only to discover that I'm not feeling any much better.

Sigh.

Barely a whisper

You don't have to feel like a waste of space,
you're original, cannot be replaced,
if you only know what the future holds,
after a hurricane comes the rainbow.


Maybe you're the reason why all the doors are closed,
so you could open the one that leads you to your soul.

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Never really celebrated Christmas before, wonder how it feels like to spend a blissful day with loved ones. Oh well, I can only imagine.. :)

Grief

I hate to feel what I'm feeling, to see what I'm seeing and to think what I'm thinking. No matter how I hide or run away, they'll find me again in the end. I have no way to make them go away.

If only there's a button to turn off all of these.

If only...

12.12.2011

“People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren’t, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because when these things happen, we suffer terribly.”


Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist.

Value

You can have the latest smartphone, or a brand new laptop, but they serve no purpose if you have no one to communicate with, or anything to do with it. Then, even the state of the art piece of gadget will be rendered useless. Likewise for one's life. It will be empty and worthless, if there is no purpose to it.

I am always realizing things late. Sometimes, too late. When will I learn, I wonder?

It was today

A picture perfect moment, there's the sun, and then there's you. Gleaming eyes, the perfect smile, the enthusiasm in your voice, and I knew the reason why. It was a moment I will never forget. I was reminded how great things were. 

It was a one-way street that I took. One which I regretted terribly. 

Maybe its for the best. I convinced myself, though my heart says otherwise.

I know someday, somebody out there will then replace that place. And they will be the nothing I never was.

Perhaps in a parallel universe, its a happy ending. Maybe therefrom I can get some comfort.