Sunset, beautiful but doesn't last long.
Finally I get to take some good pictures, giving me a sense of accomplishment. :) I am starting to wonder how I'm going to survive staying home 24/7. It feels like I'm being trapped and it makes me feel so lifeless here, wandering aimlessly, watching series everyday, read novels etc. It may seem like I'm enjoying my holiday, but I find the days empty and I'm just looking for things to do to fill up that hole. Just finished my exam about two weeks ago and moved out from hostel last Friday. Going to graduate real soon, I hope. I can't go back to my life there either way...
Actually am feeling kinda sad for leaving, 3 years aren't short, but they flew by real fast. I'm gonna miss my carefree life there, friends, hostel mates, someone important to me. Memories are what I cling to now. Yeah, keep telling myself that I'll go back sometimes, quite frequently in fact, due to me furthering my studies. Hmmm. But still, its not the same anymore.
Anyways, its Father's Day today, its been bugging me actually.. Well, in my family, we don't celebrate these days, birthdays or whatsoever. Chinese do have the culture of not physically expressing their love, especially when it comes to their family. I don't know why, and its even more apparent in mine. How many Chinese have you met that always explicitly express their love to their parents?
Today it feels like any other day, I don't think I can ever bring myself to say anything to my dad, not even a 'Happy Father's Day'. I'm always not good in expressing my feelings. There's some kind of barrier there and I just don't know how to get over it.
However, today is not any other day to me, its Father's Day, and of course my wish, implicitly expressed - Happy Father's Day, Dad. Thank you for bringing me up, caring for me, always giving me the best. You are and always will be the best. I hope you know that. :')
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