Grief

I hate to feel what I'm feeling, to see what I'm seeing and to think what I'm thinking. No matter how I hide or run away, they'll find me again in the end. I have no way to make them go away.

If only there's a button to turn off all of these.

If only...

12.12.2011

“People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren’t, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because when these things happen, we suffer terribly.”


Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist.

Value

You can have the latest smartphone, or a brand new laptop, but they serve no purpose if you have no one to communicate with, or anything to do with it. Then, even the state of the art piece of gadget will be rendered useless. Likewise for one's life. It will be empty and worthless, if there is no purpose to it.

I am always realizing things late. Sometimes, too late. When will I learn, I wonder?

It was today

A picture perfect moment, there's the sun, and then there's you. Gleaming eyes, the perfect smile, the enthusiasm in your voice, and I knew the reason why. It was a moment I will never forget. I was reminded how great things were. 

It was a one-way street that I took. One which I regretted terribly. 

Maybe its for the best. I convinced myself, though my heart says otherwise.

I know someday, somebody out there will then replace that place. And they will be the nothing I never was.

Perhaps in a parallel universe, its a happy ending. Maybe therefrom I can get some comfort.

Goodbye November

I've learnt a lot during your visit this time of the year. I can't say I enjoy most of the days that you brought me, but there certainly were a few unforgettable moments I had. I hope things will be better next year.

Hello December.

I've come to you alone this time around. Not a melancholy month, are you? 

Like today never happened

Hello all! Jayesslee's big fan is back today to share their latest cover, Dare You To Move by Switchfoot. It was originally one of my favourite songs and now after they did the cover, I just love it more! :)

Okay so I downloaded its mp3 and cut it myself, now I can play it whenever I want to. Hehe. Their recordings are really of high quality, sounded as if its recorded in a recording studio. :O Anyways, I thought I'll share it here as well if you're as mad as me about that song. Haha.

Mediafire download link.

Enjoy!